I have said that I've learned to trust the Lord in all things. In my post "Salvation" I talked about how the Lord has saved me from great harm from a number of things throughout my life. That building of trust in the Lord has come from looking back at the many things that happened in my past. God had to have had a hand in them. Well, lately I have had thoughts of questioning the very existence of God. Maybe I've just talked myself into believing. (Satan working again)
Why am I starting to question things you might ask. Back in August of 2015 I posted "Funny Dream". In this dream, it was like God saying to me that the problems with my back will not be as bad as I envision and we shook hands on it. I was telling God at the time that I will trust Him in whatever happens but I said it in such a way as to try and build up my trust; "I WILL TRUST YOU LORD."
There was no time frame when or how much better my back would get. At that time I was envisioning me becoming an invalid, not being able to do anything. I still have back pain and sciatica. It is better some days and worse other days and even though this has put limits on things I can do, it has not shut me down completely. I now have some stenosis in my upper spine, shoulder and neck areas, and I am starting to have prostate problems, my PSA number is going up. I long for a body like I used to have were pain was from over working or exercising.
I know that our timing is not God's timing. I believe that the bodies we will have in the next life will be amazingly so much better than these we have in this life so maybe I will just have to wait until then. I think about the many stories in the Bible where the imposable became possible. Maybe there is still something in store for me in this life. I will just have to wait and see.
Why am I starting to question things you might ask. Back in August of 2015 I posted "Funny Dream". In this dream, it was like God saying to me that the problems with my back will not be as bad as I envision and we shook hands on it. I was telling God at the time that I will trust Him in whatever happens but I said it in such a way as to try and build up my trust; "I WILL TRUST YOU LORD."
There was no time frame when or how much better my back would get. At that time I was envisioning me becoming an invalid, not being able to do anything. I still have back pain and sciatica. It is better some days and worse other days and even though this has put limits on things I can do, it has not shut me down completely. I now have some stenosis in my upper spine, shoulder and neck areas, and I am starting to have prostate problems, my PSA number is going up. I long for a body like I used to have were pain was from over working or exercising.
I know that our timing is not God's timing. I believe that the bodies we will have in the next life will be amazingly so much better than these we have in this life so maybe I will just have to wait until then. I think about the many stories in the Bible where the imposable became possible. Maybe there is still something in store for me in this life. I will just have to wait and see.
