Reluctant
I have been extremely reluctant to say what I am about to say, for fear of “jinxing” it — a sign of my weak faith. I recently shared with my Facebook friends the demonic activity I experienced back in 1999. I also posted about it (“Questions”) here on the blog. At that time, I said, “I plan to be a thorn in Satan’s side.” It was out of the blue that I said it, out over the Internet for all to see. Today I feel confident those were not my words — they were the Lord’s. This blog is not really my own; it is the Lord’s.
This is why I’ve been fearful. When I said those words, Satan responded with, “Now feel my pain.”
(6/30/16 — his complete message to me was: “So you think you will be a thorn in my side? Now feel my pain.”)
Who has ever gotten a personal message from him?
Pain comes in different formats. There is pain from disease, like the pain I have from the problems with my back (still no surgery, and it has not been debilitating). The other pain is what so many people are going through today — the loss of a loved one by uncontrollable circumstances.
I pray always for the safety of my family, especially for our daughter who keeps going out into the world by herself. God has been faithful in honoring those prayers. Whenever I post to this blog, Satan has always done something to try to keep me from doing so. There are too many things he has done to list right now, but the times that frightened me the most were when we temporarily lost contact with our daughter while she was out alone. For me, it was clearly Satan’s work, and it always happened when I was about to post something significant. You can only imagine the thoughts running through my head.
The Lord’s loving-kindness to me and my family has been bountiful. He has protected us through the hurricanes that have come along the Gulf Coast (we live in Houston, Texas). He has protected us through all the recent floods. His protection has even extended to our property. He has given us just the right amount of rain this year for our fruit trees and garden. So many blessings from the Lord — and it’s not that I feel I deserve any of it. God is simply that kind and loving to us.
